Livestreaming: I am retarded, but selected to join the analoghorror game?!
Chapter 224 - 217 Deserted Mountain Night (Part 2)

Chapter 224: Chapter 217 Deserted Mountain Night (Part 2)

Lu Qiou couldn’t understand why Feister would deliberately choose this moment to publish his work. Was he trying to intentionally humiliate him? Was he flaunting his talent on purpose?

Or was it...just an unintentional act?

Just like people don’t care about ants on the road, they would crush them without even noticing.

"Ha...haha!" Lu Qiou felt suffocated.

He finally realized the truth he had been avoiding all along, which was... that the life he strived for was meaningless.

He wouldn’t leave behind anything; he was not the protagonist but just like those minor characters in fantasy novels who only spout nonsense, born merely as stepping stones for the hero; whether they appeared or not didn’t matter.

Lu Qiou felt as if there was no difference between being alive and dead, yet the thought of his own death filled him with unspeakable fear.

Therefore, Lu Qiou once again sought the power of God—He needed a reason to keep living.

Lu Qiou construed Feister as a trial bestowed by God. After all, it was by accepting God’s gift that he had embarked on this life path and, thereafter, naturally encountered various setbacks.

Because God is fair and does not show favoritism, so to gain anything, one must inevitably undergo the accompanying trials.

Feister was the trial given by God...Lu Qiou had to think this way.

At the same time, Lu Qiou also thought that since God is fair, then... the talents God had given Feister must also come with even greater trials.

Thus, Lu Qiou began to investigate Feister’s life, and then... he found out that Feister had lived a happy and untroubled life!

Unlike himself who always tried to please others, desperately maintaining his facade, forcing himself to do things that disgusted him, and persevering step by step until he finally found his footing.

Feister never faced great difficulties, he didn’t even study that hard, yet he could instinctively write stories that Lu Qiou could never reach.

It seemed like...God was favoring him.

Lu Qiou had once revered God, believing that his current life was all given by Him. But God did not bestow him with talent; instead, He gave the talent Lu Qiou so desperately desired to this person of poor character, who even disrespected God on public occasions.

No, on second thought, wasn’t everything he had achieved the result of his own hard work? What did it have to do with God? Who was He? Who did He think He was?

Does that mean there is no God in this world?

After that, Lu Qiou abandoned the God he had believed in.

It was also after that, Lu Qiou began to feel jealousy towards Feister... as well as hatred.

Without this, he couldn’t think of any other way to keep on living.

And then, Lu Qiou heard that people within the association unanimously planned to suppress Feister.

Because they specifically approached Lu Qiou, hoping he would be the figurehead of this action, and they were willing to help Lu Qiou regain his dignity!

They seemed to think that Lu Qiou, being humiliated by Feister like this, would be willing to follow their arrangements.

But Lu Qiou was well aware that the reason for this was because these people... were afraid of Feister.

Because Feister could live freely without regarding human relations and etiquette... no, without following the rules set by predecessors.

How could they not be afraid? They had survived by eating so much excrement, already accustomed to the stench, how could they tolerate such an existence.

Thus, they roared in their hearts like wild beasts:

Why can this newcomer not follow the rules that we all have to obey? Why!?

Their fear of a genius who transcended conventional wisdom transformed into thoughts of stifling him. But they wouldn’t dirty their own hands; they needed a tool, so that if anything went wrong, they could disassociate themselves.

Even knowing this, Lu Qiou still agreed.

He was very clear that he was not a genius, just a mediocre person who could only survive in the world in a mediocre way, by complying with the rules.

Moreover, Lu Qiou didn’t believe that oppressing Feister could stifle him, because he was a genius! How could those ridiculous and ignorant people possibly confine him!

Of course, there was another reason why Lu Qiou did this... it was also exactly what he wanted to do.

After wrapping himself in kindness for so long, he could finally express himself under the guise of justice.

The actions that once disgusted him, when carried out by himself, felt so satisfying.

Thus, without hesitation, Lu Qiou publicly criticized Feister, showing the world his nasty side, and, with the arrangement of the association, very reluctantly attacked his work.

The reason used was... improper values.

But in the end, Lu Qiou still overestimated... everything.

The reason of improper values was too powerful. Like Pandora’s box, once brought out, things became completely uncontrollable.

Feister was criticized by the whole society, his works were devalued as worthless, and subjected to a comprehensive ban.

Even his life was affected; he was beaten by the champions of justice, his house was smashed, and his parents were injured and hospitalized.

Because his values were improper, any treatment he received was deemed justified, so... naturally, there was no one to be responsible for their losses.