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Chapter 213 - 208 Disgusting

Chapter 213: Chapter 208 Disgusting

The flames, they ignited not only a hastily lived life but also the truth in everyone’s hearts.

For people, there are some things that happen either not at all or countless times.

They discovered, to their delight, that simply by invoking the name of God, they could easily achieve their own ends, do things they would never have dared to do before.

God... truly great indeed.

Then, an enormous conflagration that consumed everything began to spread.

At first, it was a middle-aged man, whom no one wished to associate with for years.

After being rejected in his attempts to have relations with other women, he was furious and accused the woman of being a demon and demanded she be put on trial.

At the same time, other women, envious of her beauty, also accused her of being a demon.

With multiple accusations, another person was redeemed under the divine guidance issued by the Holy Daughter.

That middle-aged man then began to threaten other women to have relations with him; otherwise, he would accuse them of being demons.

He was successful and continued to succeed.

He began to truly believe in God from his heart.

And then, his actions were observed by others... and they too were tempted.

Thus, a grand trial began in the village.

They saw no issue with their behavior because God existed in their hearts.

Liliana mechanically, numbly fulfilled her responsibilities as the Holy Daughter.

No one was willing to listen to her own desires; she merely acquiesced to theirs after everyone had reached an agreement, and eventually, a mere nod sufficed.

The Holy Daughter’s nod was needed to execute the trial, but it was just a formality.

However, it was a necessary formality.

Because only this way, could it be assured that the one pronouncing the judgment was the Holy Daughter, was God.

They were merely obeying divine revelation to atone for sins.

There was no doubt about it; this was right.

That way, they could continue living with peace of mind.

As for Liliana herself, she had grown accustomed to witnessing the deaths of others; she had become numb, no longer reacting to another’s demise.

She had to adapt to such a life, to merge herself into the group.

Only then... could she survive.

Yet, there remained an indelible scar within Liliana’s heart... she had betrayed her friend and, after her friend had been tortured, had lost her forever.

Liliana felt sorrow, guilt, regret.

But that was it.

At the time, she did not understand what death actually meant; she was merely afraid of her own mortality.

She just felt, it was heartbreaking to lose a friend.

And so, Liliana continued to live in this world.

She did not know how long this life would continue, but she could only live it this way.

Then, on that day, Liliana’s life finally changed.

As the trial proceeded, fewer and fewer people remained in the village.

But, faith requires material support, so they began trying to attract outsiders to come and worship God and willingly offer up their worldly wealth.

This action eventually exposed the tribunal hidden in the remote village.

The outside world was shocked, unable to believe that such a horrifying event could have occurred in a small village.

The higher-ups were also furious.

This had crossed their bottom line.

If this illegal organization involved in religious misrepresentation had merely exploited a person’s worth without their consent, then a simple punishment would have sufficed.

But now, this illegal organization had not only drained a person of their worth but also cut off their future value, leaving nothing left to exploit!

This behavior undoubtedly crossed that absolute bottom line that must not be violated!

So, the illegal organization was taken down, and Liliana was finally released from there through arrest.

But Liliana, who thought she would finally escape from hell, did not feel much joy because of it.

After interacting with society and conversing with others, she finally realized just how unforgivable the sins she had committed were.

The education she had been unable to acquire and had so desired to obtain, had now become the thing she hated the most.

Sometimes, ignorance is bliss.

She finally understood what living truly meant and what death truly meant.

She had betrayed her most important friend... had killed her.

The sadness and guilt she felt back then had all turned to disgust at that moment.

Her life, sustained by sacrificing others and betraying others, how disgusting it was.

Liliana felt disgust at the very fact that she was still alive.

Afterwards, Liliana often saw her friend reappearing before her, uttering malicious words and replaying her death in front of Liliana time and again.

Was it the vengeance of her friend’s Dead Soul, or just her own Hallucination?

Liliana did not know, but either way, it terrified her greatly.

However, she could not show her fear in front of others because she knew they could not see it, it was visible only to her.

She could not afford to become abnormal, she had to blend into the group, that way... she could survive.

Whether it was the Dead Soul or a Hallucination, neither could truly harm her, but other people, they could indeed hurt her, even cause her death.

Liliana was disgusted with her life, yet at the same time, she was also afraid of death.

Caught in this spiral of contradiction, she was at a loss, what should she do?

What happened afterwards, Liliana did not remember very clearly.

She only remembered being diagnosed with mental trauma due to self-harm, and being underage, so she was arranged to go for treatment at a sanatorium.

But there was an accident on the way there, and Liliana ended up at this hotel...

That was Liliana’s life up to this point.

Her Visualization also ended there.

Having seen it all, Xiao Yi remained silent.

Clements and Nania, who had also witnessed Liliana’s past life, fell into silence as well.

They didn’t know how to react for a moment.

It was hard to imagine an experience like that for a child of around ten.

They were able to resolve their own problems mainly because they had mature minds capable of bearing it all.

But for Liliana, that was asking too much.

And to leave this place, they had to resolve the issues in Liliana’s heart.

But such experiences were hard even for them to bear, not to mention making someone else overcome them, especially when that someone is a child as fragile in mind as in body.

"This won’t be easy, Xiao Yi..."

They looked at the figure of Xiao Yi and couldn’t help but feel concerned.

The viewers in the live broadcast room also couldn’t help but worry for Xiao Yi.

This was not a matter that could be resolved by playing the clown, acting foolish, and making a child laugh.

It seemed that this time Xiao Yi was truly at a loss.

Xiao Yi himself remained silent, with no indication of what he was thinking.

"This is... my life up to this point."

Liliana looked at Xiao Yi and asked helplessly,

"I’ve already caused too many people to die for me to live, what... what should I do? Indeed, is the only way to make amends to the dead to die myself?"