It's Just A Picture (BL)
Chapter 102: Hyung, won’t you let us love you?

Chapter 102: Hyung, won’t you let us love you?

There was a sudden silence while my heart hammered to the extent I could hear it loud and clear.

I was sure the twins could hear it too. They kept their eyes on me, waiting to see my reaction and i kept my eyes on them, wondering if they truly remembered that night.

Then, I opened my mouth to speak.

"I..."

What was I going to say? I didn’t know. How was I going to react to this? I couldn’t even think.

"Hyung," Seojin called and I blinked my eyes. "Don’t misunderstand." He said. "We didn’t talk about it because it looked like you didn’t want to talk about it."

"I didn’t... Want to..." I blinked once more. What was going on again? I was confused.

"We’ll be honest from here on out." Seojun said, drawing closer to me.

Seojin held my hand, kissed it, and said,

"We were glad you asked us to help you."

Seojun also drew closer and took my other hand.

"We were glad you wanted to get through your trauma with our help." He dropped his forehead on my knuckle and added, "We were glad you reacted positively to our touch and our every movement."

"We were glad we were able to make you feel good." Seojin said. "And those are the truth. We... We also felt good. Our hearts were bursting with joy and excitement. It..."

"It felt like our hearts had become one."

I looked at them, stunned and also relieved. My heart could finally beat in peace. So, I didn’t force it on them. I... I didn’t commit an unforgivable mistake.

’I... I’m glad.’ I thought, my eyes growing teary.

If they had said they did it because they had no choice, then I might’ve actually died of pain and guilt.

"So... You two... You did it because you wanted to, right? And not because I forced you." I said and they nodded.

"It’s something we’ve always wanted to do, Hyung. So we were more than happy to embrace you." Seojun said. "But..." He lowered his gaze. "We didn’t go all the way."

"What?"

"We didn’t put it in, Hyung. You asked us not to." I looked at his pain filled face. Did I really say such a thing?

They made me feel good. I could remember that much. And after that, I didn’t let them have sex with me? What happened?

The twins didn’t say much after that and simply stared at me, waiting for my response.

"W-why?" I asked. "You already did so much. Why didn’t you just put it in? My body seemed fine. I mean, I wasn’t scared or trembling so you could’ve gone through with it to the end. You didn’t have to listen to my words."

"Then that would make us no different from the bastards who hurt you in the past." Seojun said and sighed. "Disregarding your own hurt just to satisfy yourselves? We could never do that."

Ah, this was the first time I was hearing such words. Even my lovers did not go into such details when trying to get together with me. The twins were being sincere. I could tell. The look in their eye was filled with genuinety and plea.

They wanted me. They wanted me so bad that they could get on their knees just to beg for my love.

Ah, this feeling. Is there anyone in this world who would love me like this? Is there anyone who would stare at me with such tender eyes while spilling out truthfully and heartwarming confessions?

’I have never come across any in my past, and I don’t think I will in the future to come if I am to deny myself of the twin’s affection.’ I thought and looked at them with mixed emotions. ’At this point, would I even be able to deny myself anymore?’

I, who have been starved of affection and genuine love, could not possibly hold back from accepting them any longer. And yet, I was still being stubborn.

"Hyung, you... You are our light, Hyung." He touched my face and my heart melted. "We would never do anything to hurt you and will put your priorities above ours."

"We won’t do the things you don’t like and will only listen to your words." Seojin added, licking my fingers to the extent that it got me aroused. "If you asked us to jump into a pit, we would do so without hesitation. "

"I would never ask you to do that." I said and he smiled softly.

"That is an instance, Hyung. And that is the depth to which our hearts fall... Just for you." He said and started trailing kisses up my arm. "We love you so much that we could die."

"Hyung, won’t you let us love you?"

"You... You can." I said.

"Then," they both raised their gaze to stare directly into my eyes. "Will you love us in turn?"

I went silent.

To love them. How could I tell them that my heart was already yearning for them? Was that love? Wanting to be held by then, showered with kisses and whispered words of affection... Was that love? Or was that just my canal mind speaking?

I did not want to make a promise that I would not be able to fulfill.

"Can you... Give me some time to think about it?" I asked. "My feelings, I mean. I don’t know what I feel for you clearly, and I don’t know if I have the strength to, but... give me some time, just so I’m sure enough."

They looked a little disappointed but soon recovered from it and both kissed my hands.

"We understand." They chorused.

"For now, we will be satisfied with you accepting us." Seojin said and I nodded. This brought about a lighter atmosphere and he asked, "So, Hyung, for now, can we..."

"Finish what we started?" Seojun completed.

Ah, they were talking about sex. Sex! I kept thinking of that night and was regretting for no reason.

We didn’t even go all the way.

And yet, I felt so much pleasure and satisfaction from it. Just how would sex feel?

I stared at the eagerness in their eyes. I didn’t want to let them down, not again.

Deep down, I wanted to have sex with them, and the images I had been seeing of them while masturbating those fantasies, they wouldn’t be fantasies anymore, and I would get to do it with them.

That night, I was drunk so this time, I would be able to remember the process. Yes, this was okay. But before that, I wanted to know...

"Seojin, Seojun?"

"Yes, Hyung?"

"When did you two... Start loving me?"