In Love With My Fierce Farming Wife!
Chapter 1062 - 1058: Taking a Different Path

Chapter 1062: Chapter 1058: Taking a Different Path

After she finished speaking, she didn’t wait to see if Little Yanyan had heard her; she turned around and left.

She passed by the four-paneled screen with blooming peonies, crossed between the tall Jingdezhen porcelain vases with delicate necks and inserted flowers on both sides, and walked through layers of hanging gauze drapes to enter the bedroom behind.

Little Yanyan, left behind, stood there until Su Pan’er’s figure had completely disappeared before she began to cry loudly again.

Su Pan’er heard the distant sound of crying faintly reaching her from outside, and it pained her heart as though it was being cut with a knife, yet she forced herself not to listen or ask.

Qingwen and Jiu Lan were attending to her, one on the left and one on the right. Seeing the situation, they exchanged looks and finally Qingwen stepped forward, "Empress, the First Princess... she..."

"Don’t speak, I know what you want to say," Su Pan’er cut her off.

How could Su Pan’er not know what they wanted to say? But at the moment, she would not encourage such lazy behavior.

"Yan Yan is still young and does not yet understand right from wrong. What I can do is to do my best for her. Children must grow up, but before they do, before they can discern, before they learn and fly away from me, I will do my best to raise them well. I will tell them what is right and what is wrong. Beyond right and wrong is a gray area. She must learn to face setbacks and failures. She cannot flee at the first sign of trouble."

Everyone must be responsible for their own choices!

At the beginning, when she chose to raise Luo luo, she should face today the void that came with losing Luo luo.

The sky, unbeknownst to her, had begun to rain, the light drops stirring irritation in one’s heart.

Su Pan’er sat idle in her chair, blankly staring at the sky through the rain curtain.

"Empress, the First Princess has washed and rinsed, and has gone to study under the escort of two nannies," Nanny Xiao reported softly from behind her at some point.

"I see," replied Su Pan’er.

She slowly withdrew her gaze and tiredly rose from her seat, gradually lying back down on the chaise lounge. She stared up at the canopy of her bed and pondered.

She thought about Jun Ruoxue, about Little Yanyan, and as she did, she drifted off to sleep without noticing.

She had a dream. In the dream, the Emperor came walking on the stars and moon, his face all smiles. He embraced her, kissed her, and was entwined with her in the dreamscape. But at the height of passion, His Majesty suddenly bowed his head and said, "Pan’er, would you bear another Prince for me?"

"Ah!——"

Su Pan’er let out a scream, startled awake from the dream.

Upon looking up, everything around her was quiet, and the rain still gently fell, no different from before.

What had changed was only her state of mind.

She sat up and leaned on the chaise lounge, silently thinking about the words His Majesty had said.

Those words still echoed in her ears but sank her heart further into the abyss. She subconsciously reached out and gently touched her belly.

Could she still become pregnant?

She knew her own body; it had been fundamentally harmed before. It was already dangerous to carry Little Sugar Bean, and she had risked her life giving birth. Her body was really not suited to having children anymore.

If she could no longer have children, what was she to do?

Countless thoughts surfaced in her mind, and Su Pan’er found herself unable to sleep again.

The rain that started as a drizzle gradually became denser, accompanied by a cold wind that slapped against the face like icy blades.

The loss of the First Princess’s crested myna, which had caused a stir and involved the Imperial Guard in the search, also reached the ears of Teacher Nian who taught Little Yanyan.

Teacher Nian, responsible for instructing the First Princess in vocal music, initially thought that the First Princess might not attend class that afternoon. Contrary to her expectations, the First Princess came to class on time, with swollen eyes but still well-mannered.

This made Teacher Nian regard the First Princess with even greater respect.

Members of the Imperial Family are not like ordinary families; these daughters born with a golden spoon in their mouths could lead lives of unrivaled luxury in silks and satins, even if they remain ignorant their whole lives.

Yet, so few can be this self-disciplined, this strict with themselves!

It was precisely because of this that Teacher Nian was in high spirits and allowed the First Princess to stop her studies early.

News from within the Imperial Harem’s Palace reached Qin Yi’s ears as well.

Thinking of Little Yanyan crying with her eyes red and swollen, Qin Yi had no mind for state affairs and dismissed the courtiers early to return to the Imperial Harem’s Palace Hall.

There, Su Pan’er was listening to the reports from those who had searched each palace.

"Your Highness, we have searched every palace, big and small, and still have not found it. We ask for Your Highness’s punishment."

"There’s no need for punishment. It must be that the bird flew away on its own. You have all worked hard this afternoon; go back and rest early. Jiu Lan, see to their rewards!"

That last sentence was directed at Jiu Lan.

Jiu Lan stepped forward and swiftly distributed the reward money, much to the delight of the Imperial Guards who had been bustling about and left with smiles and gratitude.

Qin Yi was coming from afar and bumped into these departing Imperial Guards. Being directly under His Majesty’s supervision, they all knelt down to greet him upon seeing him arrive.

"You may dispense with the formalities."

Qin Yi hurried past them, slipping through the parting curtains into the inside.

"Well, any news?"

He had yet to sit down when he eagerly inquired.

Upon receiving the news, Su Pan’er hurriedly came forward to greet him, dismissing the attendants before saying, "There’s no news. I reckon that Luo Luo must have flown away; after all, it is a feathered beast with wings."

"If it’s flown away, then it’s flown away! If Yan Yan likes it, we can search outside for another one that looks similar," said Qin Yi, unwilling to see his daughter cry and thus looking for alternatives. He looked around and asked, "Where’s Yan Yan? Why isn’t she coming out? Is she still hiding inside, crying?" he teasingly suggested.

"She’s gone to study."

Su Pan’er wanted to say more, but Little Yanyan had already come in from outside.

"Yan Yan greets Father Emperor, wishing you well," said Little Yanyan as she approached and respectfully greeted Qin Yi.

Qin Yi repeatedly praised her, "Good, good, good, my Little Yanyan is so well-behaved. By the way, why haven’t you greeted your Empress Mother?"

With a scrunched-up little nose, Little Yanyan hesitated for a moment before reluctantly bowing, "Empress Mother."

Yet she refused to say anything more.

Qin Yi found this extremely amusing and took the opportunity to stroke Little Yanyan’s head, "You child... you’re so much like your mother!"

"Who is like her?"

"How could she possibly be like me?"

Mother and daughter said in unison, then they looked at each other and immediately turned their heads away, neither willing to acknowledge the other.

Qin Yi couldn’t help but laugh and quickly put on a stern face, "Enough, whether you are alike or not doesn’t matter; the point is what’s happening right now. As the younger generation, how can you shout at your Empress Mother in such a manner? It’s unbecoming! Yan Yan, do you realize your mistake?"

With her nose wrinkled, Little Yanyan sneakily glanced at Su Pan’er, then lowered her head again, refusing to say another word.