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Chapter 736 Death Exemption Token (2)_1

Chapter 736: Chapter 736 Death Exemption Token (2)_1

The more Song Youman thought about it, the more heartbroken she felt, "An’an, you tell me, aren’t you a fool?"

Before Xia Wan’an could speak, Song Youman expressed her frustration like a disappointed teacher, "I have never seen anyone more foolish than you!"

"If I were you, I would not leave, no child or not...and even if I did leave, I would make sure to get half of Han Jingnian’s wealth before I go...I would never underestimate myself like you...I can’t even think about it, the mere thought of all that’s happened between you two, it just wrenches my heart..."

"I’m not... I’m not underestimating myself..." Xia Wan’an reached out, wiping away Song Youman’s tears, keeping silent for a little while before speaking again, "Really... I’m not..."

"It’s just... It’s just a bit sad...a bit regretful...and, I miss him a bit."

Her words brought on an even more intense wave of tears from Song Youman.

"Youman, stop crying, I’m telling you the truth, I really don’t feel underestimated..." Xia Wan’an said with a slight smile, "Perhaps this is...just a case of being brought together by fate, but not destined to be together, after all, only those destined to be together can last..."

"You see, I fell for him at first sight when I was sixteen and ever since, I’ve only ever thought about him... I really did like him which was why I agreed to be married to him in exchange for an alliance between our families; I truly loved him, despite his indifference after marriage... I loved him for so many years, in the end, I couldn’t be the burden to him forever, could I?"

"It’s not that I’m selfless, in fact, I’m really not as unselfish as I imagined to be, I knew I might have difficulties getting pregnant early on, but I still chose to stay by his side... it’s just...it was unavoidable...with things getting worse one step at a time, I was left with no other choice... If the Han Family is considered an empire, then I’m the beauty, I can’t let Han Jingnian abandon his empire for me, after all, there’s a whole family behind him... If I really can’t have children for the rest of my life, the Han Family wouldn’t let Han Jingnian have no heirs... Jingnian may able to withstand it for a year, two years, but what about three, five, ten, or even twenty years? Youman... I don’t have that confidence, especially when he’s already considering surrogacy, I’m even less confident..."

"Youman, you say I’m naive, I am naive but isn’t anyone who is in love seems like a fool or a lunatic in other people’s eyes? Youman, do you know that? Han Jingnian has had several brushes with danger, and I was always anxious for him... Sometimes I would stay up till late, worrying about the worst-case scenario, like exchanging my life for his... but I never thought I would end up leaving him with my life in the end..."

She had been holding these words in heart for a long time, yet she never mentioned them to anyone, only Song Youman could make her so unguarded to spill out the deepest thoughts of her heart.

All along, Song Youman was quietly listening to her, not interrupting her at all. After Xia Wan’an finished speaking, she finally spoke, "An’an, what will you do in the future? You’re still young, you have a long road ahead of you, you need to think about yourself..."

"I need to think... I’ve figured it out, when I turn thirty, I will adopt a child... As for marriage, I probably won’t, I can’t forget him and I also can’t accept anybody else, it’s better not to ruin others and torture myself..."