I Became a Billionaire After Being Reborn
Chapter 301: Intentionally Conceiving This New Life

Chapter 301: Chapter 301: Intentionally Conceiving This New Life

The painting in Ji Liancheng’s home was the same, all the vines were struggling. If you didn’t look closely, you’d really think they had broken through the darkness. But they hadn’t at all, they were still in the darkness...

"I don’t really understand your paintings either; I was just describing how I felt after seeing them. The feeling is that your paintings are searching for the energy of life."

Guan Qi seemed shocked for a moment. "Everyone thinks my paintings are inspirational, full of struggle against constraints, full of the power of life. Even when trapped in a desperate situation, they are still striving to find vitality, never giving up. You are the first person to say my paintings are full of despair."

"Ah, I see." Lin Zhi realized her paintings could indeed be interpreted in the way she mentioned.

"I really don’t understand art. I said your paintings were all about despair, but it turns out I misunderstood."

"No, you are right!" Guan Qi suddenly said.

Lin Zhi was stunned!

What did she say?

Guan Qi seemed to have found a kindred spirit, barely able to hide her excitement, her voice even trembling a bit.

"You are right... My paintings are all filled with despair, there’s no inspirational spirit at all. They seem to be struggling for survival, but actually, they are all desperate because they can never touch the hope of survival. They use all their strength but still can’t reach it. So they are all filled with the most vigorous vitality, which is actually... just the final burst of life."

Lin Zhi looked at her in shock, were these paintings really symbolizing herself?

Was it because she couldn’t find the hope to continue living that she committed suicide?

Didn’t she have a child? Wasn’t the child her reason to keep living?

"Why did you assign such meaning to them?" Lin Zhi asked, "Miss Guan, don’t blame me for speaking rashly... Can’t you find the motivation to keep living?"

"You previously said, my paintings are searching for the energy of life." Guan Qi avoided the question, "That description is very apt, they are indeed searching for the energy of life."

Lin Zhi was quick to respond, continuing to ask, "So are you also searching for the energy of life?"

Guan Qi did not answer, but her expression was desolate, even desperate.

She suddenly released her own sadness, because once seen through, she could no longer hide.

"Yes, I don’t know what the meaning of life is. I don’t know how to keep living day after day, I don’t know what can rekindle my exhausted heart. I can’t find motivation or direction, nor can I break through myself. I feel like living really has no meaning."

"..." Lin Zhi looked at her even more shocked.

She was right, she was suffering from severe depression!

"Miss Guan, I think you’re just too tired, why don’t you put aside your creation and rest for a while."

Guan Qi smiled sadly, her eyes desolate, "It’s useless, over these five years, I’ve tried all sorts of methods, but none could find the motivation to keep living.

I’ve been to many places, done many things, I continuously do good deeds, engage in extreme sports, work hard to improve myself, keep creating... Unfortunately, it’s all in vain.

No matter what I do, my life is only briefly ignited. Once done, I return to how I was at the beginning, still without any will to live. Even worse..."

She said, looking at her, "To keep living, I even deliberately conceived this new life."