I am the Zombie King of the Apocalyptic World
Chapter 295 - 294: Where Does This Come From_1

Chapter 295: Chapter 294: Where Does This Come From_1

"As for the car, a woman led me to find it. I don’t know when she arrived here, but she looked scrumptious. I thought, if I took a bite, it should taste wonderful. But I didn’t kill her after all because she was a controller. I wanted her controller head more than I wanted to kill her. Unfortunately, her controlled one was killed, and the murderer was you, I suppose."

Tang Ye didn’t respond, which was interpreted by Xu Haishui as agreement. Xu continued, "But even without the controlled one, I still chose to let her live. Instead, I asked her to help me find this car. I brought it over here as a collectible."

"So where is she now?"

"She left."

"Left? When?"

"Seems like it was about three days ago. I’m not too sure. Anyway, she left in the last few days. She said goodbye before she left."

"Where did she go?" For some unknown reason, Tang Ye abruptly asked this question.

"She went to the place where zombies are most concentrated, over there." Xu Haishui pointed to the south.

"It seems like snatching others’ memories doesn’t bring you much gain."

"No!" Xu Haishui’s face suddenly contorted, eyes fixed dead on Tang Ye.

"You don’t understand. Although you took a piece of memory from that controlled one, the quantity was not much. You’re not me, you can’t understand my feelings! I feel incomplete. I need a complete me! A comprehensive Xu Haishui. Regrettably, I’m not like you. You got lucky, but I didn’t!"

"When becoming someone else, numerous lives have to be sacrificed. In order to make myself complete, I snatch others’ memories. Besides that car, there are also three items outside. These three items represent three controllers and their controlled ones that I’ve killed. I took their memories. I’ve received many names, but I chose my original one."

Tang Ye’s exploration of the fluffy rubber band in his hand paused, his eyes softening slightly, staring at the crazed Xu Haishui.

"You might not understand what I’m saying, but I must make it clear to you, Tang Ye, think about it: was the you before the Apocalypse and the you now the same person? Think carefully."

His mouth wide open in a grin, Xu Haishui’s white eyes met with Tang Ye’s own.

Tang Ye was startled and fell into deep thought.

Exactly, was the person he used to be the same person as he is now?

"Think carefully, you must carefully think about it, have you thought about it? Have you... not yet? Then let me remind you, your personality, think carefully about your personality, is it really yours?" Xu Haishui urged.

Tang Ye furrowed his eyebrows hard, comparing his recollections to his current self.

When he did, he was shocked to find that he used to be gentle, showing his goofiness in front of others. Although often troubled at night, the worst he would do is become silent - not the bloodthirsty beast he was nowadays!

His eyes grew cold, he stared at Xu Haishui, slowly uttering, "What are you trying to say?"

"Thought about it yet? Maybe, just maybe, have you thought of it?" Xu Haishui, looking at Tang Ye, wore a sick and twisted smile, as if he had finally found someone who understood him.

"Haven’t you noticed, Tang Ye, your feelings have virtually vanished. Can you return to your mindset before the Apocalypse? You can’t, so what does this mean? The us in our memories had feelings, but the us right now, or you guys in particular, do no not have these feelings!"

"Our feelings are locked in our memories. Taking others’ memories is all about capturing these fleeting feelings. Even if they aren’t yours, others’ memories are like a drug addiction; the more you delve, the harder it is to pull yourself away! It will make you obsessed. If you’re not obsessed, it’s because you did not obtain enough memories!"

Tang Ye grinded his teeth, repressing his killing intent, waiting for him to finish.

"Whether it’s the previous you, the current you, it’s still the same person, including the piece of memory you obtained, it all belongs to you. Likewise, the memory I obtained also belongs to me, it doesn’t belong to anyone else. The difference lies only in the master’s replacement!"

Bang!

Tang Ye could no longer tolerate it. This fellow had been talking round and round with him. He was willing to speak, but no one was willing to listen. However, the difference between the pre-apocalyptic him and the him now was too great. No one was concerned about this issue, but once it was brought up, unease flooded Tang Ye’s heart.

This feeling was hard to explain, it felt like traveling through a portal in a web novel: one person’s spirit occupying another person’s body and possessing his memories. So the question is, how do we distinguish who we are?

Is it the one occupying someone else’s body, or the one being occupied?

Perhaps it could be said that one has taken over another’s body, but it could also be said that some more memories have suddenly appeared in the brain.

This was something that couldn’t be clearly explained. And precisely because it couldn’t be explained clearly, Tang Ye had tolerated Xu Haishui saying so much. But now, his patience had run out.

"You better start getting to the point!"

Xu Haishui was taken aback, a strange expression appearing on his face, radiating a sense of chill under his warped visage.

He waved his hand, knowing Tang Ye didn’t want to hear more nonsense. "I need memories. The ultimate purpose of needing memories is to achieve feelings. And these feelings, you can give me."

Tang Ye’s eyes flickered, expressing his incomprehensible emotions.

"Can I give you... feelings? Why do you say this?"

His expression contorted, Xu Haishui’s lips curved into an extremely perverted smile.

"I am sorry, I have studied you for a long time. Although zombies do have memories, those memories are not long, and they only relate to food. They don’t have feelings. But now, it has feelings!"

Xu Haishui said excitedly, pointing at Ah Fu outside the door.

"Even though you control it, when you were around, it never tried to attack the infant girl. A long time ago, you left for a far away place, only leaving it and the little girl behind. I thought it would eat her, but, it didn’t! It has a memory! It has feelings. Feelings for that little girl!"

"It’s truly unbelievable. Back then you were still Level 4. I don’t know how you controlled it. But, your control only works on it. For other zombies, you can only control them minimally. You were far away from here, I don’t know where you went, but at least you were outside of my surveillance range. At such a distance, even I can’t control a zombie," Xu Haishui’s face fell as he spoke.

"You know, I’m a controller. But since I became a zombie, Mi’er’s feelings for me faded away. I tried to salvage it, but it didn’t work. She started to treat me as a stranger, driving me away, while I could only keep deceiving myself."

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