Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]
Chapter 126: Guilt

Chapter 126: Guilt

Jules’ pov

"If I didn’t, no one would be willing to do this!" He responded briskly and I flinched a little.

I angrily mopped my cheeks before starting to pace around the spacious office.

"I told you I didn’t want to do this. I can’t be able to live with myself if something happens to her." I called out before glancing at the witch and I noticed that she was already passed out. Panic swirled inside of me but before I could start screaming, Andrian was beside her in sn instant, checking her pulse.

"It’s very weak but she’s still alive." He informed me and I felt my heart sink into my stomach.

"Don’t beat yourself over this." Andrian called out as he began to phone someone again. I felt anger start to flare up inside my chest, anger mixed with an intense amount of hurt.

"If something happens to her, if she ends up dying, it would undoubtedly be my fault, Andrian. I cannot live with myself if this happens." I breathed out, voice starting to wobble a little.

I slid down the cold wall against my back, hands fishing my hair in deep regrets.

"I’ll schedule another witch to come try again tomorrow." Andrian called out after a little while and i flared up at once.

"What? Are you insane?!" I cried out as I gasped in horror. I couldn’t even bring myself to glance at the witch who was laying in a pool of her own blood, having already passed out.

Andrian let out a sigh as he crossed the room towards me.

"You’re sounding like you’re not the one who needs this. It’s literally for your own good. Don’t you want to unseal your powers any longer? That’s what you’ve wanted since we arrived in this country, isn’t it?"

I slowly shook my head as he spoke while I felt my eyes start to sting with the urge to cry once again.

"Not like this, Andrian. Yes, I- I want to unseal my powers, but not at the risk of others, I can’t bare to do this to innocent people, that’s just gonna make me selfish as hell and I’m certain my mother wouldn’t approve."

Andrian regarded me silently for a few moments before speaking.

"She’s the one who put you in this situation. I believe she’d understand that you didn’t have a choice in this situation." He continued and once again, I shook my head while sniffling a little.

"Or perhaps she didn’t want me to unseal my magic? Perhaps unsealing it is only gonna place my life in more danger. Perhaps this is just to protect me. And besides, I know my mother, she’d never approve of innocent people dying just because I want to unseal my powers, because that’s selfishness."

I breathed out deeply once I was done and when I glanced over at Andrian, he was currently massaging his forehead.

After a little while, he ended up speaking.

"So... you aren’t gonna try again? You’re giving up?" He asked, voice soft and I bit on my bottom lip and slowly nodded my head.

"I- I’d really love to be an actual warlock again. But if the only way for that to happen is after I hurt other people, then I don’t think it’s gonna be worth it any longer."

My voice broke at the end of the sentence and I couldn’t bring myself to look at Andrian because it felt so much like I was letting him down. However, before he could respond, a knock sounded on the door and Andrian went to get it.

Soon, he returned with two men and they went straight from the witch. They carefully lifted her and when her hand blunced limply, I felt my heart jump into my throat, prompting me to abruptly lean forward.

"I- is she dead?" I demanded, breath bated.

One of the men shrugged as he began to respond. "Well, she’s clearly—"

"Passed out. She’s passed out, and these men are taking her to a hospital to go receive some proper treatment." Andrian cut into the msn and responded smoothly.

I felt my heart stutter again as I glanced back to the man who nodded once, lips pursed.

"She’s gonna be fine." He continued before he and his partner left with the witch. I kept silently hoping that nothing ends up happening to her because of me.

I curled into myself by the wall and kept swimming in immense regret.

Andrian handed me a drink at a point which I accepted but only used it to cool my hands.

"You sure you don’t want to try opening your msgic again?" He asked after a little while and I shook my head firmly.

"I can’t live with another person getting hurt because of me." I mouthed bitterly and Andrian sighed.

"You do have to understand that sometimes we have to take somethings without it being given to us, especially when it’s in our reach."

I poundered on what he just said and even though it sounded logical, it sounded extremely cruel to me because of the lives that are involved.

Which was why I still insisted that I won’t be trying again.

As I prepared to leave his office, he encouraged me to sleep on it, while letting me know that he’s already in contact with a very good witch who’s way powerful than Raven and today’s own.

I felt too drained to talk, and so I just nodded weakly as I headed towards the door.

"Don’t forget to start using your new phone as well. I’ve set it up for you already. Start using it tonight, hm?" He called out and once again, I weakly nodded in response.

"Take care of yourself and remember to be careful around Blaze. If possible, sleep with one eye open around him. Okay?"

I nodded again. "Okay."

As I stepped out of the office and from the building, I hailed a taxi and slid into it, and then I cried all the way to the school because I felt extremely traumatized after what I witnessed back at Andrian’s office, and also because I had a feeling Andrian had been lying to me about the witch still being alive.

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